One of a Kind ...
Friday, April 2, 2010
Pasts
Throughout all these years, I saw some dark hidden secrets...those not meant to be seen by me...
Somehow, without me even foraging for it, it just appeared...perhaps its just meant to be seen by me.
So somehow, I knew what were the happenings way before...but luckily they were all way way before.. At least it does not affect me in my everyday life but I am unsure about the future tho.
I was shocked at first but come to think of it again, I kinda have that vision about the past. There were too many...to many of them...
Sometimes I asked myself, Why me out of the whole bunch? Certainly I don't have any of the criteria / requirements to be the one...So why me? Perhaps because I'm the idiot...who knew stuff but pretends to not know anything about it...
Sometimes I do ponder on this...till my head gives me some sort of what you can call a migraine.
I guess previously, those were just signs which God might have wanted me to view... I should have stopped it way back...that faithful incident, those incidents. He had wanted me myself to view those and stop it right then n there...But me? All I did was to cry...typical of me, a cancerian emotional freak...and then when my visions began to get cleared again...I resume staying on and NOT moving on..How dumb was that?
Thing is now, so what those were in the past but why on Earth must I be the victim to be able to see all those? Don't you know its very depressing...hurtful to me..
All I wanted is for those to be somewhere...away from the heart.. away from the vision of that of mine and most importantly of yours! Hell no, they were all there, lying around, too many of them...just too a plenty of them all...
& why? What did I do wrong? I tried all I could to be good...
Tried all I could....
Still, all those seems to linger on my mind...there were just too many of them...too many that I could not take it sometime.
Where did I go wrong ? What did I do wrong that I have to go through all these?
Again, remember the saying, Every cloud has a silver lining..perhaps now's the bad times & I do hope soon better times will come...
Forever close to your heart....
Somehow, without me even foraging for it, it just appeared...perhaps its just meant to be seen by me.
So somehow, I knew what were the happenings way before...but luckily they were all way way before.. At least it does not affect me in my everyday life but I am unsure about the future tho.
I was shocked at first but come to think of it again, I kinda have that vision about the past. There were too many...to many of them...
Sometimes I asked myself, Why me out of the whole bunch? Certainly I don't have any of the criteria / requirements to be the one...So why me? Perhaps because I'm the idiot...who knew stuff but pretends to not know anything about it...
Sometimes I do ponder on this...till my head gives me some sort of what you can call a migraine.
I guess previously, those were just signs which God might have wanted me to view... I should have stopped it way back...that faithful incident, those incidents. He had wanted me myself to view those and stop it right then n there...But me? All I did was to cry...typical of me, a cancerian emotional freak...and then when my visions began to get cleared again...I resume staying on and NOT moving on..How dumb was that?
Thing is now, so what those were in the past but why on Earth must I be the victim to be able to see all those? Don't you know its very depressing...hurtful to me..
All I wanted is for those to be somewhere...away from the heart.. away from the vision of that of mine and most importantly of yours! Hell no, they were all there, lying around, too many of them...just too a plenty of them all...
& why? What did I do wrong? I tried all I could to be good...
Tried all I could....
Still, all those seems to linger on my mind...there were just too many of them...too many that I could not take it sometime.
Where did I go wrong ? What did I do wrong that I have to go through all these?
Again, remember the saying, Every cloud has a silver lining..perhaps now's the bad times & I do hope soon better times will come...
Forever close to your heart....
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Time for resolutions!
I was supposed to blog on new year's eve itself but I was out camping at some secluded place in Changi,quite nice ambience tho & I happen to be free only tonight.
First of all, HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!
Every year is like a new "beginning" for me, I have always had new year's resolutions but sad to say I have never really followed up with them.
Hence, this year I have made some resolutions & I am very keen to achieve them.
I have like eight of them.
* Getting that car license...oh yes I have been procrastinating alot on it. Planning to get my own car after that. FIRST CAR LICENSE!!
* To tone up my body, yes I know most of you will say "Hey,but you're already slim enuff!"
I am of acceptable weight but I do feel that I need to tone up on some parts of my body ;)
*To be a more organised person,I want to be able to accept tasks and get it done almost perfectly well. I want to have the most neatest desk at work, ensuring that all my stuff are in place, properly filed and no papers hanging around on my desk. I want to be the kind of worker who remembers perfectly well how and where she/he puts her stuff.
My room too, sometimes it resembles that of a pig sty,hence this year and so on, it will be neat and tidy. I
* Take real good care of my darling laptop, I realised that besides spending most of my time with my fiance,I also spend time with my laptop every single day. I should clean it like once in a while,maybe wipe the screen or something. I should.
* This year, I've made a vow to myself not to waste my time around those who don't appreciate me.
* I will learn more in depth on how to ....errmmm COOK! Yeah, I need to...seriously :S The problem with me is that I love to BAKE, I can bake almost anything but when it comes to cooking, I really need to learn.
* To READ! I have totally forgotten when was the last time I read a novel??!!!
I would want to explore more on self-help books, healing, those stuff which enables one to calms your mind & soul.
* To be more patient, I do realise that I can be quick-tempered but I am not really the sort who just shout it out loud. I still do think that I should be more patient.
So that's it!
Typed out the resolutions hence now's the time to proceed with them one by one. Step by step.
Toodles!
First of all, HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!
Every year is like a new "beginning" for me, I have always had new year's resolutions but sad to say I have never really followed up with them.
Hence, this year I have made some resolutions & I am very keen to achieve them.
I have like eight of them.
* Getting that car license...oh yes I have been procrastinating alot on it. Planning to get my own car after that. FIRST CAR LICENSE!!
* To tone up my body, yes I know most of you will say "Hey,but you're already slim enuff!"
I am of acceptable weight but I do feel that I need to tone up on some parts of my body ;)
*To be a more organised person,I want to be able to accept tasks and get it done almost perfectly well. I want to have the most neatest desk at work, ensuring that all my stuff are in place, properly filed and no papers hanging around on my desk. I want to be the kind of worker who remembers perfectly well how and where she/he puts her stuff.
My room too, sometimes it resembles that of a pig sty,hence this year and so on, it will be neat and tidy. I
* Take real good care of my darling laptop, I realised that besides spending most of my time with my fiance,I also spend time with my laptop every single day. I should clean it like once in a while,maybe wipe the screen or something. I should.
* This year, I've made a vow to myself not to waste my time around those who don't appreciate me.
* I will learn more in depth on how to ....errmmm COOK! Yeah, I need to...seriously :S The problem with me is that I love to BAKE, I can bake almost anything but when it comes to cooking, I really need to learn.
* To READ! I have totally forgotten when was the last time I read a novel??!!!
I would want to explore more on self-help books, healing, those stuff which enables one to calms your mind & soul.
* To be more patient, I do realise that I can be quick-tempered but I am not really the sort who just shout it out loud. I still do think that I should be more patient.
So that's it!
Typed out the resolutions hence now's the time to proceed with them one by one. Step by step.
Toodles!
Labels: eight, new year eve, resolutions
Sunday, October 4, 2009
my fingernails deco
Those are some of my decorated nails :P
I simply enjoy decorating my fingernails on my own.
It allows me to experiment with colors, different techniques and textures.
Labels: fingernails, nail art, nail deco
Monday, September 14, 2009
Photoshopped again!
I was trying out doing some stuff using photoshop again after like donkey years! hehe (this shows that I don't photoshop my photos! lame but true :P )
Anyway, I learnt some new stuff and also recalled what I learnt like 4 years back.
I decided to make something for my dear,something like a collage.
:)
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
I feel so stupid
For the second time in my life, Ive realised on my weakness.
I am a very soft-hearted individual.
Gets angry rarely.Even if I am extremely angry, even when I expoded, my explosion would not be one which everyone would turn and stare in horror.
I have high tolerance level.
But that doesn't mean I can be taken for granted.
It all gotta change or else I am gonna change it.
I am a very soft-hearted individual.
Gets angry rarely.Even if I am extremely angry, even when I expoded, my explosion would not be one which everyone would turn and stare in horror.
I have high tolerance level.
But that doesn't mean I can be taken for granted.
It all gotta change or else I am gonna change it.
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